Food Struggle in a Land of Friendship

This weekend I went to visit my girlfriend from high school. We have been friends for almost 10 years and I cherish her friendship through all of our stages of life. She recently moved to NC to be with her mom and to make a new start for herself. I'm so proud of her for leaving behind all the bad things that were holding her back from looking at the life she has ahead of her.

This picture was taken in 2006, our senior year of high school. I was fairly heavy here (I'm on the left) not sure how much I was weighing in at.

In terms of the food struggles, I knew there would be a lot. This is a house that eats cake for breakfast and loves everything that I know is bad. Fried chicken, french fries, pizza. Just everything I love... I was prepared with my weekly extra points to use them all in a night. We had chinese takeout for dinner. I got grilled hot and spicy chicken with peppers, onions, and white rice. I served myself a normal portion (maybe a little extra) and found that I got full very quickly. Usually, I could have eaten probably 1/2 - 3/4 of the container myself. I barely touched it and brought the rest home for boyfriend, who promptly devoured it upon my arrival home.

Surprisingly, I did well with the weekend AND treated myself. Morning doughnuts? Brownie for dessert? Yes and yes. I just planned the rest of my day accordingly. I came home from her house (and after my Krispy Kreme coma splurge that was worth every point) had some carrots, celery, and salsa. Normally, I would have went straight to the snacky cupboard and devoured 1/3 a bag of potato chips then ate a full meal. Cupboard snacking is a terrible habit of mine. For some reason, I don't feel nearly as guilty just shoving food in my mouth while I stand up and contemplate what I want to eat. Thankfully, I didn't do that today.  I had a veggie burger for dinner with some WW soup. I feel good and full and NOT deprived. I had a treat. Like I've said before, its CRAZY for me to think that I will go the rest of my life without ever eating a doughnut again. I won't. This weekend was a true test of making healthy choices. I am proud of myself! I could have easily chosen a more carb or fattening meat choice for Chinese dinner, and I went with something I knew wouldn't break my point bank or my weight loss goals. At this point, I still take things day by day. The first day was by far the hardest.

In other news, I am DREADING going back to school tomorrow. UGHHHH children. Time to watch Honey Boo Boo and do some grading. And maybe indulge in a delicious Special K cereal snack later. Weigh in is on Wednesday!! I can't wait to see if there is any progress! I already FEEL so much better.